Reflecting on Today

Today has been a strange day. I have not felt like myself. I woke up with a spring in my step, and by the time Brook and I had gotten ourselves fed and ready for the day I was exhausted. We curled up on the couch together with a blanket and some cartoons and I fell asleep. I was planning on spending 15 minutes watching TV and woke up an hour later! Yikes. That was not how I wanted to spend the morning. Brook didn't seem to mind.

Trev showed up and noon for lunch. I had forgotten about lunch. While whipping up some french toast I burned my hand on the frying pan. My co-ordination has been lacking lately.

After lunch we cleaned out the Dog house (my annual fall cleaning) by shaking out all the blankets and sweeping out all the gravel. After shoving them all back in with the rake handle I noticed the worlds biggest wasp nest attached to the inside wall of the dog house. After thanking God that it was a vacant wasp nest it became very clear why the dog layed out in the rain this summer when she had a "perfectly good" dog house. I just thought she was being overly dramatic, laying on the step whimpering. Then came a wave of guilt, and a few tears. Goodness my hormones are a mess.

I put Brook down for a nap and went back outside to trim Sam's nails. I got them all done and then on the last nail I clipped it too short. She yelped, started to bleed, and I cried a little bit more. Oh goodness....

I went back inside feeling really tired. Then all of the sudden I felt like cleaning. I cleaned the bathroom, dusted, windexed and vacumed the afternoon away.

Trev came home for supper. I had forgotten about supper. After I whipped up some taco's Trev decided to take Brook to her first Broncos Hockey game this evening. It is a good thing I have some time alone this evening, because I am not really feeling like myself.

Thank you God for Brooklyn Dawn

Happy Birthday Brook! 2 years old. I can't believe Brook is 2 years old already. She is growing up so quickly. I love watching her change and learn. It is so much fun to see her little personality develop. She must learn 10 new words a day right now. What a busy little girl!

Brook has brought Trevor and I so much joy. I can't imagine our lives without her. What a crazy ride parenthood is. There are so many different emotions and experiences that I would never have imagined I would feel. I would never have guessed how protective and worried I would feel when she is sick or hurt, or how excited I would be to see her learn something new. The joy, doubt, excitement, exhaustion, and fulfillment of parenthood. The desire to give her everything she wants, yet learning how to give her what she needs.

The blessing of being Brook's parents is a privilege and an honor. What a wonderful little Girl God has given us. We are so blessed.

a year ago

Week 28

Only 12 more weeks to go! According to what I have read this baby should be about 2.25 lbs and about 15 inches long. By week 34 (in 6 weeks) he or she should double in weight and be about 4.75 lbs and 18 inches long. I guess if there are things I want to get done I better do them now while I can still bend over. So, with that in mind.....

Today I pulled some boxes out of the basement and started sorting through some baby clothes. It was really exciting to start preparing for this baby to arrive. I have been holding myself back from organizing for the last few weeks and it has been killing me!! I made a list as long as my arm of food I want to put in the freezer and random things I want to do. Just looking at all those little clothes reminded me of how wonderful it is to hold a newborn. I am getting so excited.

At my last Dr appointment I measured a little bit small again, so I have another ultrasound scheduled for Oct 12th (Brook's Birthday). The Dr figured it is just the way I carry the baby, but he want's to make sure all is well. With how active this baby is I am sure things are fine.